OK so I know I have failed on the whole posting thing, I just haven't felt like blogging. I just realized that I totally missed the month of February from being in the hospital, it was a cold one though so I guess that's not that big of a deal.
Well I am out of the hospital again, for the 4th time in a month. This past stay my surgeon decided to operate again and see if he could figure out what is going on with my body. Unfortunately he couldn't. He said he pulled out my entire small intestine and looked at it and it was absolutely beautiful, which made him happy but frustrated all at the same time because now he has no idea what is wrong with me. I met with my GI's on Monday and gave them the update as to what was going on and they said that it is rare but occasionally they have patients that just take a long time to adjust to the ileostomy and the surgery, they have never had one quite as bad as me but they feel confident that is all that is the matter. In time my body will adjust and everything will work normally, well that sounds great but what am I supposed to do until then?!?! They informed me my only job was to gain weight (and stay out of the hospital). I have lost 20lbs in the past few weeks, besides being skin and bones my hormones are all off because of how much weight I have lost. I have been having these hot flashes like crazy, I will be sitting minding my own business and the next thing I know I am drenched in sweat! It is absolutely horrible, I feel for any woman going through menopause and dread the thought that someday I will have to "make the change". So I am recovering from my surgery ok, it frustrating to be recovering all over again but I am blessed to have so much help to make it easier. I still have to be careful with how much I eat and really try to listen to my body, I have thrown up the past couple of nights, but even so I can tell I am getting stronger and things are healing. I still am so glad I had the surgery, I just wish I could be back to normal. But, spring will come and I know everything will someday be pleasant again!